{Artwork yet again from the ever amazing Wen-M}

So after another weird disappearance I came back. This time I was having major technical difficulties dealing with a very faulty Windows system, which all ended with a reinstallation of my PC and so on. Right now quite is going on in my life, even if everything is a string of tiny events. I don’t get to talk much about the tidbits of my existence.

Today I met my coworker at the office, who turns out to be the daughter of my godparents and well we went into major chit chat to catch up with what we missed around the years we have been out of contact. She is in the capital studying sociology and we don’t get to see each other much and we never were very close, but still very friendly to each other. Anyways it was quite fun sharing what happens with my life and so on. She is ecstatic about me being a writer and wants to read something of mine, which makes me think that I really need to edit my newest short stories, which sadly stay at hiatus, while I combat novel project.

Speaking of “Forged in Blood” I am on the final five chapters and Samantha is learning the ropes of being a femme fatale + bitch. She has it in her, just the transition from humility to I-can-kill-you-without-moving sort of aura is weird for her, although she likes it. Nearing the end I am seeing some loose ends mainly to deal with the other characters, which seem to fade away and I can’t allow this unfortunate sight. I decided to add a subplot with the second villain for the ending and well add some vignettes with different POV characters in the beginnings, but this will happen during revisions hopefully. They seem still too far away. I feel crappy today, so no writing sadly, but with a headache and upset stomach it’s best not to self torture brain. I will try to go to bed at 10 pm instead of midnight, which I usually do.

Hope that helps, cause I really look forward to ending this novel for three reasons: 1) I can show myself that yes, indeed I have the needed consistence to actually finish a novel, no matter how fickle and lazy I can get; 2) the ending is the best part of the novel for me, because I like evil overpowering women with sluttish behavior and knack for sadism; 3) I can’t wait to start my new project. Originally I thought of writing a paranormal romance of sorts with milder apocalyptic themes and more relationship with splendor of setting. However in my head formed three words after I hit my mom’s car: “Car Crash Dummy”. Add to that a horny possessive demon, a female exorcist and one of the Seven Deadly Sins and you get a weird tale that has to be told.

I also decided to venture out into a new medium that I always wanted to write for aka comic books. I have an artist, my darling model/photographer/soul mate of weirdness and art Svetlozara, to draw for me, while I write the storyline and such. She needs this too on her portfolio for her college application, so it’s a win-win. We are using my novella idea “Twisted” with the apocalyptic world and all. I swear I will write that one someday. I will send her comic book art so that she can start reading and practicing with the proper design. I have no idea when this will be ready, but it’s cool.

While we are the topic of visual arts: I am rescheduling my big “flashy” photo session for later in July, when I will have free Sundays for sure and till we figure out, where we can shoot in peace on Sunday, since people don’t usually work on Sundays. Before that one, we will do some classic black and white photos and one photo session with gothic words written all over her body. I want her to get them actually painted on her skin, so they look like tattoos and not use Photoshop for the words. We still have to figure out how to do this one.

With my PC back in action I have Movie Week resumed. I will post all in all 8 movies since last time I failed and I still have hard time choosing what movie is unique and specific enough to make the cut. The theme for the week is pretty vague, so I just choose memorable, strange movies with a different concept from the typical storylines. Today’s post is about the satirical comedy “The Onion Movie” ~ Be sure to check it out!

Ah, I am very comfortable with my new routine. Suddenly I find myself doing everything I wanted in a creative aspect and I manage to work and still be somewhat fresh. I just wonder how long this will last. Writing wise I am happy to announce that chapter 9 is finished and Samantha is on her way to the land of big bad girls waiting for her initiation. I am doing 6 pages a day in my journal and that is the new count although word wise I have no idea how many words I produce. At least I am getting things done and I have six more chapters to go before this incredibly short novel is done. Well the initial draft that is.

Now off to the main menu of this post and mainly the whole meme and tagging business. So chronologically speaking I was first tagged by MusicLover and because of that I will do hers first. The meme is called the “Five Things Meme” and I present thee the rules:

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags five people, and posts their names, then goes to their blog and leaves them a comment, letting them know they've been tagged.
4. Let the person who tagged you know when you've posted your answer.

What five things were you doing five years ago?

1) Being Tortured at School
2) Fighting Evil Monsters in my Mind
3) Scribbling down the Bits of my Insanity
4) Reading the Insanity of other People
5) Watched too many Movies

What are five things on your to-do list for today (in no particular order)?

1) Finish this blog post, duh!
2) Make my still none existing Queen size Victorian bed
3) Check my mail for another 10 times at least
4) Start reading a new novel
5) Sing a duet with Tori Amos on a stage

What are five snacks you enjoy?
1) Chocolate in Industrial Quantities
2) Specially baked differently filled dough snakes
3) Pizza
4) Icecream
5) French Fries

What five things would you do if you were a billionaire?
1) Buy a HUGE old Victorian Mansion
2) Buy best education ever
3) Run a chain of successful and luxurious book store-cafes
4) Donate a huge amount of the welth
5) Invest the rest

What are five of your bad habits?
1) Procrastination
2) Biting my nails
3) Hurting people, because I think it’s funny
4) Gluttony
5) Chew on strange objects

What are five places you've lived?
1) Summer villa
2) My house, duh
3) With the Queen of Britain, we were roomies
4) There was this unfortunate accident and I made Paris Hilton lend me her house
5) Calvin Klein’s ranch for a while, since he had to use me as a muse for his work

What are five jobs you've had?
1) Tour Guide
2) Office Job
3) Translator
4) Made Transfers
5) Simultaneous Translator

Okay, but since I believe in being fair and democratic with people I leave this one open. I invite and tag anyone, who likes to play this one.

Now off to Lady Blue and the all too familiar 123 page tag, which everyone still adores. I know I still do. *grins*

1. Pick up the book closest to you, right at this moment (no cheating you literary types!)
2. Open the book to page 123
3. Scroll down 5 lines
4. Share the 6th line with us by writing it in your post, making sure you add the book's title and its author as well
5. Complete the tag by tagging 5 other bloggers
6. And please do the favour of including a link in your post to the blogger that tagged you!

So for me it is “The Left Hand of Darkness” by Ursula Le Guin. This time for real. I hate when people name anthologies in two volumes with the work that is in volume two. Grr!

Pg. 123, line 6: “Here he would have received a much harsher punishment than exile.”

Once again I am being liberal and all that want can play the game. Yey! And now to conclude this post I shall share what kind of cookie I am!

You Are a Black and White Cookie

You're often conflicted in life, and you feel pulled in two opposite directions. When you're good, you're sweet as sugar. And when you're bad, you're wicked!

The Recipe For harry

3 parts Sensitivity 2 parts Sass 1 part Craftiness Splash of Instinct Finish off with whipped cream

{PS: This amazing pciture comes from none other than Stephanie Pui-Mun Law from Shadowscapes}

I took two days of off air time and when I come back I get over swamped with information. It seems that for the two days I have been missing too many updated their blogs. My blog tour only finished with all the blogs on Blogger, which leaves my LJ people for tomorrow. I never knew life could be so hectic and I am so stopping adding people on my blog roll. I love new acquaintances, but I am getting a bit overwhelmed with the data. Anyways if someone thinks I am not showing enough on their blog, simply know that I am reading, but can’t afford to comment.

So let’s move to my life. Thursday got me drained with the German graduation party since we all passed the special German exam and now carry the piece of paper stating we can speak almost as good as a German would. The day put me in panic mode since I had no formal clothing and had to mix a strange combo with weird clothes. This reminds me that with the money from my summer job I will update my closet. Of course Thursday and Friday had me in another aspect since I went to a beautician about the dark spots on my face and I died, since she squeezed them and shocked them with electricity. Ouch!

Friday I saw my friend photographer/artist/sword fighter Svetla and drank wine in the Sea Garden among nature. We chatted about projects and how she was going to play into a replay of an old swordfight over my home city Varna in the medieval ages and I am so going to watch. We decided to start a web comic together and possibly create the perfect idea for anime and then sell it to a Japanese company and see our baby developed. But those are just wild dreams like my grand computer game scheme.

Friday brought many new books as well. Almost full list with cover art on “Temple Library Reviews”:
~ “Black Magic Woman” by Justin Gustainis
~ “The Summoner” by Gail Z. Martin
~ “The Blood King” by Gail Z. Martin
~ “Spirit Gate” by Kate Elliot
~ “Witchember” by John Lawson
~ “Brida” by Paulo Coehlo

I made a new decision. I will write my novel on a journal and then during rewrites revert to the PC. I found writing by hand to be more fast, efficient and gripping. The same amount of words, 1K to be exact, written on hand takes faster and I barely notice pass. My thoughts have time to fully form and my hand keeps up with my brain and vice versa. The PC makes my eyes hurt and I get distracted easily by Google. Bad Google!! So I am on the hunt for new journals and made my friend Alex, that amazing gal, to bring me some from her dad’s firm as they have too many, but I am not sure, because they have salamis on their covers. Considering her dad works in the meat product business is the bad side.

Oh, Wednesday was kind. Thank you, goddess of Wednesday, for being so nice to me today. Creativity wise that is. I somehow dodged through my bad writing time and scribbled the same scene in school. The dialogue is still a bit strange sounding, but from then on I managed to get inside Samantha and write the scene with the fear and anxiety. There is something in the old fashioned way of writing with pen and paper that lets your thoughts flow and develop in a steady pace, following your hands and while you are writing the sentences, other form fluidly without being rushed. I also was at school and had nothing better to do in literature class. We were discussing the biography of another author and he gave tasks for homework, which will give us final grades instead of a test. I am singing Hallelujah right now.

So I covered my mark of 1K, even though it’s in my notebook, still eligible and very interesting how my scene ended with the 1K mark. I always good at flash fiction, but this is ridiculous. Anyways I started reading a new book: “Dark maiden”, which is a paranormal including Japanese elements like fox demons.

I also posted a review on a very funny short story called “Unique Chicken goes Reverse”. So if you are interested, be sure to visit Temple Library Reviews.

Before I forget I did my first themed post on mythology on my “Garden of Art” blog. I really like these themed posts on cool topics that I like to ramble about. I barely have the opportunity here since it’s my writing and personal blog aka whining also. So different the feeling and yet exciting.

It was a very unproductive Tuesday by creativity standards. So I went out to study, yes? I did and even helped my sister with her homework and I think something must have snapped in my mind frame, since I could barely get into my writing mood. I produced 500 words, which sounded hollow, if the first draft is the skeleton of a novel than these 500 words had no marrow inside. I think that it has to do something with thinking analytically because of the Literature prep for the test and then getting into poetry mood to write some haikus. Must have short circuited my brain on that one. Funny really. It’s strange, because I also got an anxiety attack at the same time. I have this gut feeling that something bad is going to happen, pretty much like animals get restless before an earthquake. Now it’s beeping again and I am super not focused. Gee, must be fire and brimstone coming soon.

Good thing is that I found out how to write chapter nine. The standard linear way wasn’t going to help me since the chapter carries a very neurotic and scattered spirit, since Samantha is suffering. So I am glad that I happened to have read “Amberlight” since there Sylvia uses a method of telling the story is short fragments and this particular technique will help me spare words and get the story working. However I have trouble getting inside her head and making it more dramatic. My natural preferences go towards the witty, sarcastic characters that snort and retort. My project however involves timid, scared, desperate and schizophrenic. So I see this as a potential problem at several spots, the more emotionally loaded ones that need internals and show characterization. The plan is to write those spots the way they come and mark them on word with comments and try to get into Samantha’s skin during the edits, when the story is ready and only layering is needed.

Monday has proven itself to be a very neurotic day as I tried to study and well did so until I used my half an hour brake to start my new blog. Well it turned to four hours of starting the blog of trying to find the right template with three columns, which didn’t happen. I read about how to add some background images, that third column. The first didn’t work so I stuck with the green, while the second also didn’t work. I downloaded the perfect after another long search, but the header option didn’t want to work, so I deleted the whole, cursing a lot and reverted to standard blog template. So here we go now. “Garden of Art” is officially up and running, although it still needs tweaking with the widgets. I posted for the first time there and hope it has success. I have to say that Lady Blue, Bellezza, Tanabata and Carl V have been a major inspiration to start it.

Anyways I wrote to several publishers in hopes to start a professional relationship as a review blogger for them. Hopefully they will say yes, so that I can die happy, knowing that I am going to be reading books for a long time. I managed to read “Amberlight” and posted my review at “Temple Library Reviews”. In the mean time I am waiting for Sylvia Kelso’s reply to my interview invitation. Hopefully he says yes as well. In the mean time I have two boiling hot interviews in the making and one even hotter on the horizon.

So now let’s get back on the writing part. Today I finally wrote down some interesting facts about my character and she formed quite fully in my mind with all her flaws although I don’t know how to work some of those in the story. However she has some interesting strength and that is just super cool. The story is evolving with some very unexpected results so today was a don’t write day, until you outline the next chapters so that they work with the story. Really, really exciting, development.

{PS: The wonderful and amazing art comes from Vitaly Alexius aka alexiuss. The one above is called Feral Nova.}

{PS: I am posting my fave pics from one of the cycles in America's Next Top Model, which I so love.}

Such a long time since my last blog post, mainly because my house was a mess on Friday, although I hate myself, because I forgot to post on LJ on Thursday. Anyways Friday was a major pain in the butt since my dad was at work and we with mom had to paint the ceiling and put the wallpapers on. This all went on from 10 am to 9 pm with the additional pauses. I am not going to give out details on that day, because it was tiring and monotonous. Seriously my muscles ached after that. Damn those blasted unevenly shaped walls.

Saturday was way better since dad was at home and he helped mom finish the job and I snuck in my bed and spent the day half sleeping, half reading, making up for lost pages. Good day all in all for my lazy persona. In the end all the wallpapers are put, ceilings are painted, the floor is painted as well. Now today we cleaned out the dust, washed the windows, gave the flowers a bath and put the house back together until now. My grandparents returned with my sister from our village residence, where they were for the holidays and with them came many, many yummy treats.

Right now I am halfway through my blog jumping and in the beginning of “Indiana Jones” on TV. It’s been a productive weekend since I managed to write a rough 2K these two days on my novella “Clandestine Hearts”. I am working on several different projects every weekend to stir the writing juices. It’s a thing I should have done a long time ago, but I am lazy. Don’t mind me. On my to-do-list stands the search for a new journal. My fave black fake leather one is on Dec 04 and I am just on chapter 3 of “Clandestine Hearts” on it. I also have to arrange my pictures on my PC. So many, so chaotic.

I also plan the start of a new blog on Blogger. I have been inspired by all the people posting poetry, pictures, thoughts and all those tiny bits of something that provoke deep thoughts and me being a person, who likes these details and beautiful small things in life, I want to delve into that as well. My camera will finally be fixed, so I can go around and take pictures.

Anyways I posted a review on my newest top favorite movie “Stranger than Fiction”, which has a lot to do with books, so anyone interested can click on Temple Library Reviews.

New Words: 1, 463
Total Words: 29, 232

Deadline/Target: July
Reason for stopping: I couldn’t strain myself anymore, because the scene really demanded a lot of attention to detail.
Sample: Here she was running from starved shadow demon hounds, twice for the same week, and listened to a seductive male voice in her head, who urged her to step into puddles of blood that increased her speed. Quite frankly, she had no idea what was worse. Why does this happen to me? Persistent death attempts are reserved for the heroes.
Good things: I think I got a good action scene going on with introduction to the Nightmare dimension, although Samantha doesn’t quite know it. The vision is original in my opinion.
Bad things: This scene may be a bit too big for me to take at the first draft or at all, which is a pity. I have problem with my focus, getting deeper in her head and placing the internals at the right time. I am relaxed though, cause eventually I will get it.
Real life: The weather is really strange today, since it rains and the sun is shining at the same time. It’s cold as well and my hands and feet feel like dead meat. I hate my slow blood circulation. Anyways I posted a review about my favorite anime “D.Gray Man” over at Temple Library Reviews.

Today I am going to sacrifice my hair in order to appease my parents. Disturbing, really. I want it a bit longer so that my damn cheeks won’t look like balloon fish, but whatever. It will grow back, it always does and hopefully will until I am 80.

I also estimated that I am waiting for ten marvelous books to arrive and sadly that calculation reminded me that I am going to fry at my Math test on the 13^th. Dear God how I hate unreal equations and trigonometry. I so hope for a C. That way I will get a B for this half of the year and combined with my A the first half I will have A for the year. Go me!

Of course I will fry in literature, because the same I have to write an essay as a test for my final grade and the authors suck. We have a communist poet with, about which we are forbidden to hint at communism (don’t ask, it’s complicated). Then comes an abstract poet, who writes about doors, windows, balconies, cars and wheels. Basically you read and shout “Say What???”. The third is not better as he is thought to be Bulgaria’s greatest story teller and in his short stories, absolutely nothing happens and yet my teacher manages to dip tons of symbolism lying underneath a coat for instance. I see doom looming over me. I see studying.

"Forged in Blood" ~ Adult Urban Fantasy

New Words: 2,004
Total Words: 27, 769
Deadline/Target: July
Reason for stopping: Had to write a review for my review blog

Sample: I hope there are some libraries here at least, she thought and stood to her feet. If everything seemed possible and loads of crap dumped on her head, she would better get a good book as a consolation prize. Her hair was tied in a large knot behind her head and she was ready to move. She trusted the paved streets to at least get her somewhere. The feel of uneven, but stone like material was her only beacon in the darkness apart from the burning tree leaves around the well and another flickering shine. The light was ivory white and ghastly. It blinked from time to time, giving her some sense of what her surroundings were.