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6th-Jun-2008 09:07 pm - ME + WORK = WHAAAA?!?!?
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{PS: The always amazing artwork with massive fantasy proportions comes from one of the greatest artists for me Wen-M}

Well I am most slowly coming back into my routine connected with the Internet world and it’s quite hard as I still have to ease many of my activities around my two summer jobs (who would have guessed that I would work at two places, I would never have, how it happened is beyond me). So today has been the second official day for me at work at the traveling agency I work for. My role is to act as a medium between tourist agencies and hotels. Tourist agencies send me the data for the stay of the tourist as in what type of room, how many people, what kind of meals, transfer and flights. I have to simply take this data and enter it in a special program, which sums it up in a nice table with the needed numerical signs for the archives. After that I send the table to the hotel with the number of reservation and wait. That is simply it. Of course these requests are infrequent so I order pages in folders, buy lunch for the gang or run errands in the city. The job no matter how repetitive it can be is so far fun and my coworkers are all nice to work with except this blond fat cow that simply goes on my nerves.

I am wondering how I will manage to do all the fun summery stuff, when this job is from Monday through Saturday and I have an additional job as a translator at a five star hotel for the lectures of some diet expert on Sundays. I will be going nutty. I just hope that the damn diet program decides to leave the coast faster and get the hell up the mountains, where I won’t be needed. Hehe! ;)

Anyways yesterday was quite a busy day and I would have posted then, but my cooky friend Svetla called and we had the usual chit chat over a bottle of wine in the park and did some photos in the park as in an improvised photo session. I hope to get the needed pictures from her to upload.

Around this week I think I will be able to hop around everyone’s blog to make my presence known to the masses, since I said hi to all of those I could.

Over and out.

ETA: Excuse me, but do you all seriously think you can OUTdecorate me! ME! Ugh, uh! The glove is thrown and this is what I slap you all with. Simply magic!

I updated Garden of Art with a new poem of mine and created a new blog for reading challenges aka The Catalog of Challenges (Just so you know it won't be updated much, but I like to have content seperated from this blog)
5th-May-2008 09:47 pm - Neurotic start of the week! I need a scythe.
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Monday has proven itself to be a very neurotic day as I tried to study and well did so until I used my half an hour brake to start my new blog. Well it turned to four hours of starting the blog of trying to find the right template with three columns, which didn’t happen. I read about how to add some background images, that third column. The first didn’t work so I stuck with the green, while the second also didn’t work. I downloaded the perfect after another long search, but the header option didn’t want to work, so I deleted the whole, cursing a lot and reverted to standard blog template. So here we go now. “Garden of Art” is officially up and running, although it still needs tweaking with the widgets. I posted for the first time there and hope it has success. I have to say that Lady Blue, Bellezza, Tanabata and Carl V have been a major inspiration to start it.

Anyways I wrote to several publishers in hopes to start a professional relationship as a review blogger for them. Hopefully they will say yes, so that I can die happy, knowing that I am going to be reading books for a long time. I managed to read “Amberlight” and posted my review at “Temple Library Reviews”. In the mean time I am waiting for Sylvia Kelso’s reply to my interview invitation. Hopefully he says yes as well. In the mean time I have two boiling hot interviews in the making and one even hotter on the horizon.

So now let’s get back on the writing part. Today I finally wrote down some interesting facts about my character and she formed quite fully in my mind with all her flaws although I don’t know how to work some of those in the story. However she has some interesting strength and that is just super cool. The story is evolving with some very unexpected results so today was a don’t write day, until you outline the next chapters so that they work with the story. Really, really exciting, development.

{PS: The wonderful and amazing art comes from Vitaly Alexius aka alexiuss. The one above is called Feral Nova.}

4th-May-2008 08:03 pm - Back from the Spring Cleaning
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{PS: I am posting my fave pics from one of the cycles in America's Next Top Model, which I so love.}

Such a long time since my last blog post, mainly because my house was a mess on Friday, although I hate myself, because I forgot to post on LJ on Thursday. Anyways Friday was a major pain in the butt since my dad was at work and we with mom had to paint the ceiling and put the wallpapers on. This all went on from 10 am to 9 pm with the additional pauses. I am not going to give out details on that day, because it was tiring and monotonous. Seriously my muscles ached after that. Damn those blasted unevenly shaped walls.

Saturday was way better since dad was at home and he helped mom finish the job and I snuck in my bed and spent the day half sleeping, half reading, making up for lost pages. Good day all in all for my lazy persona. In the end all the wallpapers are put, ceilings are painted, the floor is painted as well. Now today we cleaned out the dust, washed the windows, gave the flowers a bath and put the house back together until now. My grandparents returned with my sister from our village residence, where they were for the holidays and with them came many, many yummy treats.

Right now I am halfway through my blog jumping and in the beginning of “Indiana Jones” on TV. It’s been a productive weekend since I managed to write a rough 2K these two days on my novella “Clandestine Hearts”. I am working on several different projects every weekend to stir the writing juices. It’s a thing I should have done a long time ago, but I am lazy. Don’t mind me. On my to-do-list stands the search for a new journal. My fave black fake leather one is on Dec 04 and I am just on chapter 3 of “Clandestine Hearts” on it. I also have to arrange my pictures on my PC. So many, so chaotic.

I also plan the start of a new blog on Blogger. I have been inspired by all the people posting poetry, pictures, thoughts and all those tiny bits of something that provoke deep thoughts and me being a person, who likes these details and beautiful small things in life, I want to delve into that as well. My camera will finally be fixed, so I can go around and take pictures.

Anyways I posted a review on my newest top favorite movie “Stranger than Fiction”, which has a lot to do with books, so anyone interested can click on Temple Library Reviews.

30th-Apr-2008 06:00 pm - A slight case of delirium
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New Words: 1, 463
Total Words:
29, 232

Deadline/Target: July
Reason for stopping:
I couldn’t strain myself anymore, because the scene really demanded a lot of attention to detail.
Sample:
Here she was running from starved shadow demon hounds, twice for the same week, and listened to a seductive male voice in her head, who urged her to step into puddles of blood that increased her speed. Quite frankly, she had no idea what was worse. Why does this happen to me? Persistent death attempts are reserved for the heroes.
Good things:
I think I got a good action scene going on with introduction to the Nightmare dimension, although Samantha doesn’t quite know it. The vision is original in my opinion.
Bad things:
This scene may be a bit too big for me to take at the first draft or at all, which is a pity. I have problem with my focus, getting deeper in her head and placing the internals at the right time. I am relaxed though, cause eventually I will get it.
Real life
: The weather is really strange today, since it rains and the sun is shining at the same time. It’s cold as well and my hands and feet feel like dead meat. I hate my slow blood circulation. Anyways I posted a review about my favorite anime “D.Gray Man” over at Temple Library Reviews.

Today I am going to sacrifice my hair in order to appease my parents. Disturbing, really. I want it a bit longer so that my damn cheeks won’t look like balloon fish, but whatever. It will grow back, it always does and hopefully will until I am 80.

I also estimated that I am waiting for ten marvelous books to arrive and sadly that calculation reminded me that I am going to fry at my Math test on the 13th. Dear God how I hate unreal equations and trigonometry. I so hope for a C. That way I will get a B for this half of the year and combined with my A the first half I will have A for the year. Go me!

Of course I will fry in literature, because the same I have to write an essay as a test for my final grade and the authors suck. We have a communist poet with, about which we are forbidden to hint at communism (don’t ask, it’s complicated). Then comes an abstract poet, who writes about doors, windows, balconies, cars and wheels. Basically you read and shout “Say What???”. The third is not better as he is thought to be Bulgaria’s greatest story teller and in his short stories, absolutely nothing happens and yet my teacher manages to dip tons of symbolism lying underneath a coat for instance. I see doom looming over me. I see studying.

PS: I also have to help put the wallpapers back! Eek!
25th-Apr-2008 05:17 pm - Cleaning the Dust on my Shelves
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Been cleaning the shelves lately and trying to find small crevices left here and there to fit all my books. My house is small and sadly inhabited by six other human beings, who have their stuff and greedily want to take all the space for their stuff. Of course I spend around 80 bucks on books this year, because of my unhealthy attraction to the bookstore hunk and all I get is trouble. Sadly, I might consider donating books to libraries or giving them to friends, but seeing how all I have is fantasy I doubt anyone would want them anyways. I would give them away too of course on my blog, but unless you are a Bulgarian I highly doubt that you will cope with the language. Sigh.

Anyways I found some cool titles, while cleaning. I never realized I have read George R R Martin before until I found his “Windhaven” lurking around. I was thirteen, when I read it and being bad with the memory I totally forgot, who the author was.

However these are the new books in the collection:
1. Stephen King with “Salem’s Lot” (Mihai did recommended, I did w
ant to read it and then pop the universe presents me with a new reprint in Bulgarian with cool slick covers)
2. “Perfume: The Story of a Murder” by Patrick
Süskind
3. “Gifts” & “Voices” in one book by Ursula LeGuin.
4. “The Children of Hurin” by Tolkien
5. “Equal Rites” by Terry Pratchett

I so have to update my Shelfari.

Anyways since it’s Friday and I am thinking of doing a Friday Fifteen of the novels included on my To Be Read list. Those five above are included simultaneously.
1. “Savor Me Slowly” by Gena Showalter (100 pages in the story)
2. “Amberlight” by Sylvia Kelso
3. “Dark Maiden” by Norma Lehr
4. “Truancy” by Isamu Fukui
5. “Left Hand of Darkness” by Ursula LeGuin
6. “Jane Ayre” by Charlotte Bronte for the Herding Cats
challenge
7. “Persuasion” by Jane Austin for the same challenge
8. “Inkheart” by Cornelia Funke, yet again for the challenge
9. “Awaken me Darkly” by Gena Showalter
10. “Mistborn: The Final Empire” by Brandon Sanderson

Add to these the first five and the list concluded, but I so have to read the Walker Papers, I have the first three novels and the novella Banshee Cries or at least I think it’s a novella. I am too lazy right now to check, you can decapitate me later if I made a mistake. *yawn* Then come of course the Rachel Morgan series, whole first five books I have, but dear oh dear, haven’t been able to read. Time management skills suck.

Side Notes:
~ I will attempt to write something on my current WIP “FiB”, but that will happen after my cup of coffee and the report will most probably will be documented tomorrow.
~ I posted my review of “Carrie” by Stephen King on Temple Library Reviews, but since the novel is old and interest is more likely to be small and me being lazy to post all over the Internet, I will limit it to there only. Sorry LJ people.

{PS: The wonderful “Tree of Books” is done by Vlad Gerasimov, while the cute “Garden of Books” is done by Treeman}
12th-Apr-2008 06:06 pm - The Grey is over with
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Lately I have been way down under with the funk, yes that criminal funk, which took me hostage and didn’t want to let go. Right now it finally freed me and the police is still chasing it through the country, but enough with the whole police analogy. For a long time I had no idea what was wrong with me, since it was a strange mix between emotions and in the end I settled and knew I was totally burnt out. However thanks to my amazing friends, you know who you guys are and I appreciate all your moral support, I am back on track.

One of the main domains, which caused me headaches, aka geography turns out to be fabulous since today. I did a practice test in exam conditions with my geography group after my tutoring in Bulgarian ended (mind you Bulgarian grammar is simply hell even for Bulgarians) and I only couldn’t answer on 7 questions out of 60. The instant progress is amazing and well I have the confidence that I will be able to pass my April 20th preliminary exam in geography. Also my godmother will be helping with applying to the best specialty with geography and English plus arrange a meeting with a specialist in that field and introduce me to foreign programs, which will allow me to study abroad for a year at least. In the end I will most probably end up doing something I don’t totally like, but it will be solid. Also this summer I will be handling the English correspondence for the travel firm my mother works for and well I get to get some cash out of it.

Today I also finally bought my prom suit. It’s the same I spoke about so lovey dovey about in March, but this is a summer version, which suits me fine. It’s black with shiny stripes in different patterns and I simply can’t take my eyes off of it. I bought a harlequin colored shirt and the greenness of it all makes me drool. Shoes, belt and all the works have been dealt with and thank god that is out of the way, because the list is full. I have to plan my own fare well party (another annoying tradition, something to do with me being mature after high school and ready to be adult, everyone has to have one), go to another dermatologist, get my chest waxed, buy underwear and new clothes, fix the camera.

Well that’s it from me and I will be gone trying to write again as my creativity has been starving and I need to boost it.

{PS: Amazing and inspiring artwork by my favorite artis Stephanie Pui-Mun Law, which I adore and hold close for inspiration.}
27th-Mar-2008 07:21 pm - Chaotic-ness
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Oh boy! This is going be a bit of a hectic week and this is a really random Thursday post, which will be followed by a post of my newbie review of “Scent of Shadows” by Vicki Pettersson. So off we go.

I fully changed my blog style at Blogger as you all at Blogger can see and for the LJ people it was all black and now it’s stretched and green with a cool picture of the characters from Oz. Anyways I love my new look, even though you have to scroll a bit, since the banner picture is a bit large.

Anyways off to topic number too. I have a new project on my hands and I have to slap my hands, since I have way too many. The difference here is that there is a deadline aka 10th of April and it’s a short story, so I may make it. It’s a school contest competition for students that can write in English or German and well I compete in the English section. The prompt is ‘window’ and thank god I studied this year this boring poet that spoke of windows. I already know how to make it magical and deeply metaphorical as well. Hope it happens, because when it comes down to getting the ideas on paper is weird.

Tomorrow I will finally meet up with a friend of mine, who is going to be the second model on my photo shoot and will discuss prompts, poses and everything in between. Yey for that, but seriously I need to sit down and study a bit. Saturday and Sunday will be some heavy trip to study land.

On another final note for this post will do some promotion for the ultra cool second novel by Rachel Vincent: “ROGUE” It’s gonna be a winner and I really want one now!


20th-Mar-2008 06:32 pm - The Week of Hell
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The Week of Hell

I’ve been a very, very bad blogger and well this weekend I will be catching up with a lot of what I missed in the blog world. I can’t really say I have been dealing an easy week. Somehow all the chores stretch into the infinity by complications and take +2 hours than they would usually do. It’s one of those weeks you know and I don’t mind it that much except the scary taxi driver, who almost ran me over.

Wednesday was the day, when I had the long list of chores to do and it was rainy. I made passport sized photos for my school file, since the old ones were when I was fourteen and the school needs a bit more current photos. I look terribly as all people on those photos, but yeah I had to sacrifice my dignity. I went to my fave bookstore and marked five books I wanted to buy and ogled the cute guy working there as usual. So far so good, but when it came to the library it went downhill.

I was forced to leave all my belongings at the wardrobe, because those were the regulations and even though I was just going for a few minutes to return and get a new book, they wouldn’t let me. What made my blood boil was the fact that they didn’t do the same to the girl that went after me. Anyways so I had to reset the return date on my small sisters school books and the librarian head of that section was actually working on two places and handled registration at the same time, so what had to be just five minutes turned out to be twenty.

It rained. I waited twenty more minutes for my friend to show. She phoned to call she was going to be little late and well I was soaking wet, when we reached the bank. We had to do these strange and long procedures to send the money to the university via bank. You would want to ask, why the hell would I have to do that? Simple. Since the exams I will be taking in geography cost money, the university wants them sent via a bank and well in the end, when we lost two hours doing everything long, we discovered that it was still available to do the whole paying for the exam exactly at the university. So from 11 am I returned home at 4 pm.

Still to come are some hell of weeks too.

1) The book of geography tests for my exam has been officially stocked in the bookstores and I will be buying it and seriously pick up the pace.

2) My mom secured me the last copy of a handy literature tests book, so here we go with that one. I am also dumping the private tutoring sessions that waste time and money and I am visiting the schools private Saturday courses to study for the second exam.

3) Give money for too many stuff connected to school and do my physics projects on elementary particles. I have to make it a Power Point Presentation. Lame.

So from tomorrow I shall be trying to return from the world of the dead and see what happens.

{PS: The demon artists are unknown and it's a pity, but I had them in my collection before it occured to me that I would be uploading them and giving credit. I just love these.}
22nd-Feb-2008 11:52 am - I need gas to keep the engine going
mage

Okay, I can’t take it anymore. Well my eyes can’t take it anymore I guess. But let’s cut the drama now shall we. Yes, it’s nothing serious, just one of those periods, when all the task have been catching up with me and my body can’t handle it anymore. Well my mind. Being way too often on the PC has tired my eyes and sometimes I need a break to make the pain go away, so that when I blink I don’t feel my eyelids like balloons filled with mercury threatening to burst!

This probably will be a week or two with no heavy and intense blogging. I may comment here and there, but in between days and so on. On the bright side of things I will take up my responsibility with geography. What makes things more interesting is the prospect of my family selling some land in order to pay for my education. The market has been quite lethargic, but now it picked up and I couldn’t be wishing for a better moment. Still not sure though, so I may end up in my country once more, but prospects of exchange programs.

Here is the list of things I have to do in the meanwhile:

1) Read Gena Showalter god dammit! “Awaken me Darkly” has been seducing me for way too long.

2) Edit four stories. I hate editing, but one hour a day on the PC for that will suffice. I need some cash and points as a serious writer.

3) Finally add some plot to my novel. It lacks there and it’s that time, when new characters pop up and somehow shooting in the dark is not my specialty.

4) School, but that is I think self explanatory

5) Sleep more! I want that desperately

6) Watch the 60GB of movies I have stacked on my PC! (Mind you watching movies from safe distance on the PC is not that harmful than stare 4 inches from the screen typing like a madman.)

I will be posting on weekends though to keep up what has been happening.

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